I haven’t been on tumblr pretty much at all.. Only come here to check up on my much missed and loved and too-far-away best friend, Nikki. Other than that, I seem to only update when I’m having a bad day.. And here it goes again.
So I lost my job that I worked so hard to get when I moved down here and I’ve recently been doing interviews which went pretty well and I should know by the end of the week if I got the one that I wanted. BUT, at one of my interviews.. I drove an hour to get there and it was this really amazing company.. Huge beautiful facility, very secure with heavy large glass doors that you needed a pass to get through with. I met my interviewer in the downstairs lobby and he brought me up a fairly large flight of stairs to the meeting room.. When we sat down to start my interview I was out of breath.. I could barely talk to him between gasps to catch my breath for the first five minutes of my interview… How fucking embarrassing.
Then, I went to visit Dana’s sister who is house sitting for their honeymooning relatives. I went to go for a swim in their pool, Dana stepped on and into the water but decided it was to cold for him.. In an attempt to mock him by getting right in, I stepped on the ladder and one step onto the downside into the water, the ladder collapsed underneath me and I had to jump into the water to prevent further damage to the ladder. Then, naturally, I couldn’t get back out.. Had not enough upper body strength to pull myself out over the edge and the ladder was in no condition to hold my weight to get back out after trying a hundred times.. After about a half hour, we put a five gallon bucket in the pool and I used that to boost myself out over the edge.. This whole time, their neighbors were standing in their doorway watching and laughing.
This weight NEEDS to go.. Its become a huge problem and I’m to the point where I’ve even been considering laxatives and other pills to try and get rid of it so I at least have more energy to start working out more.
My reward for whenever I lose my first 50 lbs.. A new piercing.
Tired of being treated like shit, with no respect. If I was skinny and ‘hot’ like all the people you flirt with at work, you’d be treating me with respect like you do for them.
You are the most selfish person I know.
Only thinking about yourself all the time.
I feel as if I’m letting the past repeat itself.. I let myself be comfortable in a relationship that’s almost as bad as my last one.. I’m going to end up the happy but miserable wife of a gay man.
It’s been just about a year and a half now since I met such a beautiful person inside and out! It amazes me how fast you can connect with someone. You always make me smile on the day’s that seem like they will never end. I’ve never been so close to anyone as I am to you. I appreciate all you’ve done for me the past year and I’m so thankful we’ve been able to share life with eachother. Thing would never be the same without you my sweet, my yvette…my one and only love. Your one of the BEST things that ever happened! I ♥ U Jen.
Wow, it’s amazing how completely your life can change when you meet certain people and you have definitely been one of those people.. I can’t imagine my life without you now, a day without seeing you or speaking with you, seems like something’s missing, it’s incomplete. Some days we want to kill each other, but I think that’s just a product of how close we’ve become, and the very next day we’re back to showing our love for each other. I’m so thankful that we’ve been able to help one another over the past year and a half.. through your downs in the beginning, your ups and downs now, and certainly my ups and downs all over the place. I have no doubt we’ll both get there someday together. I’ve never felt as bonded to someone as I do with you. I <3 U Dana.